i have toally no idea by how i reacted when i received the news of the best lecturer i've ever met in my life passed away..

i was very calm and doesnt feel much at the point of time..

perhaps is becoz i nv communicate with him since i left my poly..
perhaps this perhaps that..

becoz i noe that this shouldnt be how i should react..

i rmb during sec sch.. one of my classmate left us due to unknown reason. and when i heard the news (early in the morning b4 assembly) i reacted quite strongly and yes.. i rmb i cried..

so i really duno y i reacted that way at that time..

and yest b4 meeting the ZPG for movie.. everything is still alright.. not until when we head towards for his wake.. my feeling changed totally and every steps that i took became heavier.. and when we reached his hse, standing infront of his coffin, visions was blurred by the tears. it did not roll down and im glad that it didnt, becoz his wife was so strong and show us some of the pictures of their family. and its really pain to watch his son playing and jumping ard.. its too young for his son to understand wht happened.. perhaps its better this way...

definately, its a loss to the student in NYP to lose such a great and caring lecturer.. and his wife/son to lose such a great husband/father...

today marks the end of my super long breakkkkkkkk

and today went out of my house with my ear stud on...
and only realised only when, luckily, i saw some camp mates at the bus stop and they reminded me..
if not im gonna enter the camp with the bloody ear stud on my ear..
well what will be the consequences? i have no idea..

went for my course briefing today.. and its super duper boring..
and i shall not talk much abt it.. here

and only up till now that did i realise next mon is actually a PUBLIC HOLIDAY!
woots!!

so most probably i will be bookin in on mon night? xD
another longgggg weekend hohoho

anyway i tik i wasted my long off/leave...
i suddenly realised that im actually having pre-x'mas celebration on next weekend.. and im starting my course on this friday.. (and yes i just mentioned this earlier on. *smack*) means i wun have much time to shop for presents! as i guess all my weekends are being occupied up till... ermm I DUNO $#%^&*()$^%&(. so not only i wun have the time to buy for 13th dec present.. maybe also for other x'mas gathering...

but oh well.. im just being abit fk up here.. i noe there's really isnt much time..
but i believe i will squeeze out some time for the presents ba.. LOL