i have toally no idea by how i reacted when i received the news of the best lecturer i've ever met in my life passed away..

i was very calm and doesnt feel much at the point of time..

perhaps is becoz i nv communicate with him since i left my poly..
perhaps this perhaps that..

becoz i noe that this shouldnt be how i should react..

i rmb during sec sch.. one of my classmate left us due to unknown reason. and when i heard the news (early in the morning b4 assembly) i reacted quite strongly and yes.. i rmb i cried..

so i really duno y i reacted that way at that time..

and yest b4 meeting the ZPG for movie.. everything is still alright.. not until when we head towards for his wake.. my feeling changed totally and every steps that i took became heavier.. and when we reached his hse, standing infront of his coffin, visions was blurred by the tears. it did not roll down and im glad that it didnt, becoz his wife was so strong and show us some of the pictures of their family. and its really pain to watch his son playing and jumping ard.. its too young for his son to understand wht happened.. perhaps its better this way...

definately, its a loss to the student in NYP to lose such a great and caring lecturer.. and his wife/son to lose such a great husband/father...