the current lifestyle is really killing more n more of my brain cells..
making me stupider by each day (n i noe u guys will say im very stupid already f3).

sometimes i really miss the emo-bing. its not becoz i enjoy the feeling of emo. but feeling emo make u realised that actually u r still breathing, still alive (ok too serious).. the heart pain that you encounter, the salt-ish taste of ur tears etc.. (cant tik of much now due to the amt of braincells working)

for now, i cant even tik of a appropriate words/sentences when consoling my frens of explaining stuff etc.

i miss the time when my msn nick appeared all the super duper emo sentences and i really like it (ok i must be mad). it feels great when u can describe ur feeling/life using words.

i miss the time when i can blog abt my thots without tiking much (unlike now -_-) influence pple with my post (rarely) etc. just like alot of pple.. i cant express much thru verbal, or rather find it uncomfortable. and when u lose the only way of expressing your feeing, u will really felt empty and meaningless.

therefore the past few mths was really quite empty and waste of time in my life. and... i duno how to cont already!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
but conclusion is.... im not emo.. coz cant emo due to the lack of emotion LOL